not getting the job

Jobless, and dealing with feeling down

Not landing the job, unemployed for so many months, and dealing with mild depression

After being so hyped up with my last job interview, I was really just saddened and dismayed that I didn’t get the job. I haven’t been officially diagnosed with depression, but for anyone who has been unemployed for a long period of time (seven months since I immigrated, but been officially job hunting for four months since I got my green card) it feels like there’s nothing really anything else that will save you from that deep, dark feeling of feeling worthless.

Unemployed? Fight the idleness.

With so much time in my hands, it would make sense that you I should just keep being busy and fight the sad depressing feeling of unworthiness. That’s the most logical thing to do, right? The saying “An idle mind is the devil’s workshop” rings so true, with the devil tinkering with you with depression and hopelessness. I’ve been through it, and I’m just tired of crying. And so for two days now, I’ve been trying to be productive: cooking, promoting my husband’s project, job hunting, chatting with my best friend from half a world away. I will admit, there are still the idle moments where I want to just stop whatever I’m doing and just think why I didn’t get the job I fell in love with. But I need to keep telling myself that I can’t keep wallowing in such things. If you’re stuck in the same rut as I am, no matter what it is, make your mind work, be productive, and do something you can be proud of which won’t make you think you’re worthless. Especially if you are an immigrant like me as well and finding it hard to find jobs, and finding it difficult to network. Find a hobby and develop some skills. It’s always best to tell your future interviewer that despite your unemployed months, you were able to learn something new and be pro-active with a hobby or project.

Right now, I’m considering getting the help of UpwardlyGlobal, which will offer free training to help you get your start in the world of ‘Murica… I mean, America. I am alos giving myself a goal of trying to promote my husband’s project and it helps me think of ways on how I could market it for free and attract people in liking or supporting it. I won’t stop job hunting (and my husband’s looking for a job as well since he resigned from his seasonal job due to bronchitis), but like you, I am waiting for that break as well.